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mr perfect

2011-04-04T11:36:00.002+08:00

Ever thought of how will your Mr. Perfect be like?

I had thought of it but then I've never met one.
I just think there are no such thing as Mr.Perfect
instead we should change it to Mr.Ideal.
Someone who is somewhere similar to the type of guy
we girls wished for, but then he's still not totally perfect.

My type of guy.
Honest, truthful, faithful and owns a great sense of humor.
Seem easy, but is there even such guy in the world now?
Passionate but rocky or Calm but stable?
I choose calm but stable. I prefer a relationship that is much stable
I don't need an idol drama relationship. I just need a boyfriend
that loves me.

I'm working hard on that. (:
Wish me luck!

Missing Out

2011-02-18T17:22:00.003+08:00

I miss out lots of meeting up with my friends because of this job,
thus I'm starting to drift away from them.
Yet i don't blame the job because of this job
I'd seen lots of things clearer than before.
I loss a sister and a handful of friends but I gain strength.
This strength that got me stronger than before.
This strength bring me courage to realise that this world
doesn't have such thing call FOREVER.

I used to tell others I have two lovely "bro" and "sis"
Andric and Ailin, we're named A.K.A. Yet now we're
separated. To be frank, who am i trying to lie to?
I thought our friendship is so strong that no one can
bring us apart. Never did I know, the one who will
bring us apart is US.

Where's the trust in between us?
One misunderstanding you end our sisterhood/brotherhood.
You chose to believe what he had said instead of
listening to my explanation. Yes it been a very long ago
incident but I still don't understand why.
I didn't know that our sisterhood is so fragile. Now you make
me believe that there's no one I could ever trust and call as
sister.

I'm so afraid to tell others about how I feel now.
I tried hiding home because I really can't bring
myself to believe anyone anymore. Even now if
I'm bothered with matter I'll just hide and cry.

I posted on blog because others all thought I'd not
been updating so it's pointless to even come therefore
this is a good way to vent all my unhappiness.

Losing you doesn't mean the world end for me.
I'm stronger than before. It just that I loss someone
I'm able to speak to when I'm down. It's alright to me,
anyway I'm brought up in this environment very soon
I'll be able to be stronger than before.

Falling down into the deepest pit doesn't mean the world
have ended. Only when you have the courage to climb up
from the it that's when the world of yours had started
to change. By climbing up, you show courage and determination.
With both of this factor in your life, it will change to be better than before.
Making you fall to the deepest, is just a test given by the God.
Overcome it and drive to your fullest.
Then nothing in the future will ever be a difficult test to you.
This was all that I'd thought of in this period.
I believe God took someone away from my life it is
to allow someone much awesome into it.

2010 to 2011

2010-12-30T05:48:00.002+08:00

It's been long since I last post, 2010
ending soon in last than a day time! (:

2010 is an awesome year?
Neither is it bad nor good. (:
Anyway this year is a year when I start to realise
I've forgotten how it feels to be in a long-term
relationship.

I used to think I'll never stand to be with a boy
younger than me by years. Never will I know,
I'm will be with a boy 3 years younger than me!
Even though I do not know will we even last or not,
but still I want to give my best for this relationship!
It might be a real challenge to be but I'll not fail. (:

End of O level, my life is rotting.
I sleep in the morning and wake up at night to
watch drama. (:
Work starting and I'm getting my result real soon!
I'm anxious about my result. I'm scare that the
result ain't as ideal as I thought it will. ):
All I wish for now is that in 2011 when I
collect my result it will be a good start for
the year! Okay, 2011 I hope you'll be a good one! <3

Adios, people! (:

sick

2010-12-23T15:21:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick today that i can't meet my boyfriend. ):
it's been like a week since i last saw him.
his school gonna reopen soon and i'm going to start work.
it'll be harder for us to meet.
hate it! why must i be sick today? stupid la! )':

Life is ironic

2010-12-01T00:45:00.002+08:00

I think flings is better than being in a relationship.
Why? I don't know! Maybe it's just that I'm too
scare of being hurt once more. I like things to be
clear cut! This being my style for years, but now
I just like the feeling of blur and unrealistic.
Being too rational for too long it's time to stop.
I like it now and I don't wish to change. 
No more heartbreaks, no more tears shedding.
(:

Life

2010-11-28T02:03:00.001+08:00

Sometime I'm so scare about those around me. They're so important to me that i'm scare they will hurt me badly. ): I don't show temper because I don't think there's a need but seriously I'm still a human. I've emotional too. Don't say things too directly, it hurts inside and i'm only not showing. I can take jokes but yet know your limits. I know I speak loudly and I act differently when I'm happy but this me. What else you want? A unhappy me that don't smile at all? A me that don't even talk when you ask me a question? I know people do get jealous but for what?! I'm not stealing anything away at all. I just wanna be me. A girl who will laugh out loudly when I'm happy. I don't wanna restrict myself just to please everyone. I'm tired. I did a lot and don't tell me no one sees it?! )'; I really hate growing up. People are getting much two-faced and becoming a hypocrite.

):

2010-11-09T18:10:00.001+08:00

I seriously don't understand myself.
Why am i holding on to you, when you wanna let me go?
I'm just this stubborn. I don't know how to let go.
I hate it whenever i see your FB appear new girls.
I hate it when they flirt you.
I can't do anything about it, but cry behind the computer screen.
I'm just this useless.
I dislike it this way.
I want to fight to get you back.
But by using what? )':

I don't think i even matter to you anyway.
I'm just a crybaby. I acted strong in front
but deep inside i'm dying.

2nd Day

2010-11-07T06:05:00.003+08:00

He's still the one I misses the most.
He seem happier than before.
Maybe what my sissy and bro told me is true.
Breaking is just an excuse to free himself?

I don't know. I dare not think about it.
I stopped crying for my sissy and bro's sake!
I don't wish them to be unhappy because of me.

P.s: I used to be a girl who believe in true love,
But I'm wrong. Cause love comes in terms and condition.
Nothing in this world is free.

P.s: I don't know what got into me but I just think
guys are bloody childish! I'm starting to detest them!
I can't understand what they're thinking about. I'm
so not gonna find a boyfriend till I think I'm ready
to be fucking hurt again. -.-"

We broke up

2010-11-06T04:14:00.002+08:00

We broke up.
At least we're still friend, what else can I possibly ask for?
Despite wanting to be more than your friend?
To everyone this is the best way ever.
I love you and j truly do, it still hurt deep inside.
When j see my phone pink LED lights up, I'm ultra happy
yet to be rational j have to admit i'm not yours anymore.

I don't need a perfect boyfriend.
I don't need a boyfriend who can accompany me 24/7.
I just néed a boyfriend who loves me and respect me as he do things.
You're wonderful as a boyfriend.
Thank you. (':

I'm at jingyi's house.

2010-11-04T10:04:00.001+08:00

hi dead blog. (:
i'm currently at Jingyi's house.
my com is dead. ):
that means no more blogging unless I use someone else's com.

okay that's all.
3 paper more to go and O level will be so over. (:

Timo's mini birthday celebration

2010-10-04T00:42:00.002+08:00

Jaslyn & Timo's mini birthday celebration

Went Jas's birthday with andric.

Reached there at around 8pm. Totally

black, no lights at all. Scary! ~.~

Stayed for a short while and went

off to celebrate timo's birthday.

We celebrated timo's birthday in 99degree.

Bought him a small ice-cream cake. (:

I can see he's ultra happy.

Even though it's boring but we did had fun. (:

We exchanged clothes. Timo is wearing andric's.

I'm wearing timo's. Andric wearing mine. (:

Boyfriend

2010-10-03T06:36:00.000+08:00

I'm so sure that I'm falling for you.
Reason wise, firstly as everytime the LED on my phone lights up PINK I'll be damm happy!
Secondly, when you do not reply me I'll just wait even though I'll be sad.
Thirdly, I like the way you understands me.
Finally, I just like you more than before.

Yet, I'm scare to fall too deeply.
I'm self-contradicting. ):

BBQ (:

2010-09-23T20:43:00.001+08:00

BBQ tomorrow. (:

Ailin staying over my house tonight and tomorrow. (:

Oh yes, imlovin'it. (:

Sentosa! 11.09.2010

2010-09-13T13:56:00.002+08:00

Sentosa! 11.09.2010 Jaslyn (:

Rouping, Kelly, Jaslyn, Andric! (:
I enjoy Suntan-ing!
Thanks to Jaslyn, for taking the photo!

Bye! (:

Teacher's Day - Candy-Peace Gathering

2010-08-31T20:16:00.002+08:00

Teacher's Day - Candy-Peace Gathering

Wake up late for school! XD

Reached school around 8 plus with Rou! (Y)

I'm so looking-forward to the celebration

cause i'm so able to see Candy-Peace bestie! ♥

When they reached i'm so effing happy!!!
ahhhh!!! :DDD

I spent time with them.

Had KFC, chit-chatted & took lots of photo! ♥

I'll upload them up now. (:

Babes, lets meet up more!

iloveyour! ♥

Bye ♥

Love, Superkellyy

Addict

2010-08-29T03:44:00.003+08:00

♥ 10 Recent Addict/Happening

1) Tae Yang -Wedding Dress (Addict)
2) Miko, Wanqi and Rouping ♥ (Addict)
3) I'm going to school much regularly (Happening)
4) Marigold Fresh Milk (Addict)
5) Seaweed!! (Addict)
6) Trying to balance my life (Happening)
7) Coming home before 1am (Happening)
8) Inviting friends to group studies (Happening)
9) Trying not to procrastinate (Happening)
10) J ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ (Addict To The Max!)

Bye ♥
Love Superkellyy.

My Love

2010-08-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

Koko ♥

WanQi ♥

Rou ♥

Wifey, Shanel Lim Pei Ni ♥

yes i do

2010-07-31T06:15:00.003+08:00

"It's hard to pretend you love someone
when u don't but it's harder to pretend
that u don't love someone when you really do."

I'm going through life of craps as well of life of enjoyment.
God is blessing me with, rain and sunshine.
You're not being hated as well as not being cared.
I bless you with your girlfriend.
& yes you make me...

Farewell, I'm gonna start a new chapter of my life
without any asshole-d guys.
Guys fuck off! _|_ (»l«) _|_

End

2010-07-23T18:15:00.002+08:00

We broke on 23 July 2010, around 1am.

thank you for the 4 month+ relationship.
now you have knock me down, i'll bring myself up.
since you are so harsh till the state that you say you
wil never contact me. alright, i'm fine with it.

i, kelly ng wan yi swear i'll never be together with
another virgo. i cannot stand their ways of living.
i don't like people who don't to my explaination.

since we are not suit then alright. lets break.
hope you last long with your GIRLFRIEND!
since you told me, you have a new GIRLFRIEND.

blessing

2010-07-15T03:52:00.000+08:00

If god is for real, can you please bless my grandmum
to be healthy. This is my wish. She's going to have
a operation tomorrow it might seem like a small operation
but for an old lady her age, she might not be able to
withstand it. Please if you're listening please bless her
With a sucessesful operation and her heart is save. If it
have to take my kidney to exchange for hers I'm willing
to do so. Even if that will only exchange for a few more years
I'm still willing.

She's someone who I love the most. She"s someone who seen me
through my life. I can't afford to lose her. She's my everything.
I may seem that I don't really care about her but actually I'm
hiding my feelings. I love her and I mean it. I can't afford to
lose anyone dearly to me. Her life equals to mine.
Without her, there'll be no Kelly Ng Wan Yi.
Not that I'm saying mum and dad aren't important but grandmum
took hold of this two title ever since I'm young.

Ah ma you'll be safe, if it means for me to exchange my life
for a few more years of yours.
Ah ma, I really love YOU.

Aren't enough

2010-07-13T23:39:00.003+08:00

i did almost everything he want.
he still find me irritating. i changed.
i don't spam message/call him.
i don't find fault in him.
when i'm tired i'll tell him.
when i woke up i'll text him.
i text him 33 message for today.
i counted every single text.
yet he still find me irritating.

he's been saying i'm treating him badly.
i'm changing but did you use your heart to
feel my changed or you seriously can't be
bother anymore? all you ask is "you should really think
if we should be together?"

what are you trying to mean?
aren't i doing enough?
who am i changing for?
whenever i ask you a question,
the answer will always be the same.
"boring!", "you know you very irritating ma!", "up to you!",
"*keep quiet and not answer me*", epic : "I don't know!".
i want a answer from you according to how you want me to be?
yet i doesn't have any of it?

yes, i do know all your answer that's why i'm not asking
anymore question. i'm tired of all your answer.
i'm seriously fighting very hard to maintain our relationship.

anyone can tell me what did i did him wrong?
am i a lousy girlfriend?
or all i can do for him is to make him angry and irritated?
aren't i anything better than all those?

unlike

2010-07-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

i'm not the Kelly N.W.Y in the past.
i'm not as strong as before.
i have millions of regrets in life but i can't change any of them.

recently i've gotten food poisoning it had seriously affected my gastric.
it's been 6 days and i'm still having diarrhea and still vomiting.
D: it's ultra torturing.

you guys will be thinking why i've change my blog skin picture.
because this is a picture that show how sweet we are in the past, ~~unlike now~~.
he said that he feel hurt by me. ):

i never thought of hurting him but still he feel so.
hais, i can't focus on anything but him.
i been forcing myself to study and even though i do manage to get
notes in, yet still after studying when i'm left alone doing nothing
i'll be still missing him again.

i know you hate me to cry or hurt myself and every time
after i've hurt you, i'll only say sorry. this word "~~SORRY~~ won't
be the cure of those harmful and harsh word you have receieve.
i won't say another word of sorry to you anymore. i'll promise
not to cry and hurt myself. i really love you. i hope you understand.

promises aren't meant to make to be broken.
i'll be a better girlfriend.

this few days

2010-07-02T23:27:00.002+08:00

this few days i;ve not being smiling like i usually do.
guess what i've been doing? answer: crying.
you will be thinking why will i freaking cry.
answer: i don't know, i feel something missing yet
i do not know how to define it.

crying didn't make me feel better as what my counselor
said. actually it make me feel weaker than ever.
other than when i was just a baby, i've never cried
this much before. i'm a girl who dislike crying in front
of others and guess what recently i keep on crying in the
public. even when i'm alone on buses or train. tears just
can't stop streaming down my cheeks. i have to hide my face
away in order not for others to see that i'm crying.

putting up this strong front is tiring. i want a shoulder to lie
on. yet is he ready to accept me wholeheartedly?
answer: he don't know. i'm the one who made this relationship
turned sour this my retribution.

all i have in mind now is to have myself to stop crying.

Toy Story 3

2010-06-20T02:07:00.003+08:00

anyone watched toy story 3?
it's an awesome show! love it.
watched it with baby, daniel and GBM!

totally in love with woody!
he's an hero!

i'll rate it 10/10!

Blockage!

2010-06-17T10:07:00.002+08:00

awww.... ): holidays gonna be over soon.
having lesser time with baby and time is catching up on me.
O level examination is coming up real soon.
if it's count in months, that means i've leave with 4 more months
to go. how am i suppose to go through this 4 months?
yet there's another 3 months time baby will be in NS.
balancing baby and studies in the meanwhile? -.-?
it's a hard task eh.
hais.
what can i do? both of this matter is the hardest
and the tougher thing in my life.
add on recently i'm unable to sleep well.
i can have days that i sleep for 10 hours + or
days that i sleep less than 5 hours.
the change of weather seriously affected much on me.
my nose blocking problem is getting bad to worse.
i barely could breathe. uhhhhhh!!!! ):

i just hope everything will be fine pretty soon. (:
no matter how tough life gonna be for me, i'm sure
i'll walk through it smoothly. :D
pray for me!

Life

2010-06-06T02:12:00.001+08:00

3 more days it'll be our 3th month!
in this two month plus we had tonnes of ~~quarrels~~
but that had been reduce and slowly it had been
covered up by happy moments.
i know baby have been trying hard to change for me,
same goes for me. (:

okay, lets not talk about my relationship life.
why not talk about my studies? *hahas!*
as most of my friend around me know, kelly dislike going school.
i'll choose sleeping over school and anything else. (other than my
baby and sis/bro)
yet now i'm seriously trying very hard to love school, *i'm forced!*
because this is my final year, i have to give my best shot!
now Chinese O level has been done, and what's done had been done
it can't be changed. even though if i can't get an A i'm able to retake it
in the end of the year.

this upcoming Monday to Wednesday, i'll be having D&T camp!
oh yesh! my favourite teacher and my favourite subject!
love this a lot! :D

as for my friend? i misses going out with them.
i've money difficulty now! ): ANDRIC & AILIN I MISS
THOSE TIME WE THREE GO OUT CRAZILY!!!

(: actually i have a wonderful life!
i've friends who loves and adores me.
a boyfriend who put me first before anything and
think about me before doing.
(for that blind mr. llewelyn ong yi de to see)

awesome! God i'm selfish, can i ask you not to
take away any of this from me please! *innocent look*

May 28

2010-05-28T03:46:00.006+08:00

May 27-28?
what I'd done?
hmm...went school and was late AGAIN!
do Chinese time practise for 3 hours.
recess as usual.
have free period as it was a subject i'd dropped.
contact time - time when your form teacher walked in
and tell you all the crap about your result.

guess what i'm a straight F9 student for this year mid-year.
i didn't cried in front of my friend as i know it the fact all my
score was divided half.

This is how it goes.
English-I took both paper, 1 and 2 but not oral that's equal to fail
by my English teacher.
Chinese-I didn't took paper 1 seriously and i didn't took my paper 2
but i took Chinese Oral.
Math-I took paper 1 but not paper 2.
Combined Science-For this subject i'm seriously sorry to both of my
subject teacher. Sorry i didn't study hard enough, I should had went school
and listen to your lessons. )": *regretted*
Combined Humanies- I took Social Studies but not Geography. Mdm Pua,
i'm sorry to disappoint you.
Design & Technology-I didn't take the paper seriously. Mr tay had a talk with
me last Saturday, i understand what he was trying to enforce into my mind.
Those words are printed in my mind.
CCA Point is a total bullshit! The school think it's funny ar! Print 3 pages for my
CCA record and ended up i've D7 as a result! IT'S A TOTAL CRAP!

you people who dislike me will be reading this post and be laughing at me behind the
computer screen. this type of result is serve to be a wake up call!

KELLY YOU SAID YOU WANT TO GET INTO POLYTECHNIC AND NOW
WITH THIS KIND OF RESULT YOU JUST WAIT TO GET INTO ITE!!!
SO YOU BETTER STRIVE HARD AND NO MORE TRUANCY!!! YOU STILL
HAVE TO DO YOUR MUM PROUD, REMEMBER!!! STOP READING STORY
BOOK WHEN YOU DOESN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHY YOU'RE READING IT FOR!
IT'S FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND THE VOCAB USED AND THE WAY THE AUTHOR
WROTE IT! YOU JUST BLANKLY READ IT BECAUSE OF THE STORY IT WON'T DO
YOU ANY GOOD. LIKE AS WHAT BABY HAD SAID, "STOP GIVING YOURSELF
EXCUSES THAT YOU DIDN'T STUDY WELL ENOUGH!". IT'S BULLSHIT!
WAKE UP AND STUDY HARD FOR YOUR UPCOMING O LEVEL CHINESE PAPER PLUS UPCOMING
MOCK PRELIM!!!

FLU

2010-05-25T17:21:00.002+08:00

i'm currently down with an awful sickness, FLU!
it just make me feel so weak and tired.
today i'd slept 3/4 of my day away.
which mean i'd just woke up! awesome!

i've nothing to be done today so i'll be watching 就想赖着你
on youtube. (:

okay i seriously have nothing to blog about.
bye!

trust that can't be found.

2010-05-18T03:13:00.002+08:00

found a profile on facebook that seem to be his.
somehow i do feel he'd been hiding things from me.
i know i should trust him but i can't find that trust back anymore.

i know he been hiding or running away from those
topic about his recent ex. she should be happy
that she still had a place in his heart, which makes
him unwilling to hurt her. i admit i'd lost.

no matter how i confronted him, about him
protecting his ex. he will either change topic or
just say lets hang up. i know he doesn't want to
hurt me. i should thank him for not lying to me,
and sorry that you're just unlucky that she always
texts you when i'm around. is it fated? i've no clue.

i'd stopped crying, crying seriously can't help me anymore.
even though i'm able to vent those sorrow out but it just won't
solve my problem. i've been wanting to know who his ex was but
yet, he been trying to hide all her information from me. how
can he be with her for 2 and a half year not knowing her surname?
even if you wanna lie, why didn't you find a better excuse for it?

hais, why can't you just let me know who she is? at least i'll believe
that you're not hiding her/protecting her from me. i promise i won't
do anything to her but just wanna know how she looks like.

hais, i know you won't even know about this post at all.
you don't even read my blog, i think you don't even know i
do have blog. i remember you do read her blog, care about what
she wrote but i think that doesn't apply to me right? ):

wasted time.

2010-05-16T04:53:00.002+08:00

i so wanna bang my head towards the wall & die.
i'd been an unfulfilled granddaughter.
my grand mum had been sicked for months &
for this few months i only seen her less than a week!

now she's in ICU & i this fucking unfulfilled granddaughter
is stuck at home and unable to get down to NUH.
i'm fucking worry but what can i do?!
can someone just teach me?!
all i can do now is just cry to myself.
at this hour everyone is effing tired and
no one will be willing to listen to me at all!

past

2010-05-10T18:55:00.004+08:00

reading his post, seeing how much he's suffering now
doesn't seem to be making me feel happy about him suffering.
i'm unclear about what had happened to him.
i just make a wild guess through his blog post and facebook
wall comment. i suppose his medical condition had
worsen. he seem to be remorseful about something in
the past. maybe it just because of his life now? unclear,
can't really be bothered.

currently i'm happy with my boyfriend. i'm posting about this not that i want
to have him back or anything to do with him.
it just those memory that had etched in my mind.

no matter what i say or do now, i just want him to be better in health.
i can say is purely because of sympathetic.
he's no longer that cheerful, outgoing, strive to get himself a better living,
happy-go-lucky guy i know. who he had become is none of my concern.

just hope you get well soon.

been long

2010-05-06T02:07:00.002+08:00

let's juts start of with the old and mostly used sentence.
it's been long since i'd blogged, do anyone misses my blog post?
hahas, i doubt so ba. by now every one might have thought my blog
have die. -.-

why do i wake up and blog today?
it's all thanks to the cramp i'm having now.
it woke me up every now and then.

now i'm trying to catch up with the changes on net.
been using blackberry and am very lazy to turn on my
slow, laggy and always hang computer.

since mum have on it and it's not laggy for now.
i ust thought of coming to blog. (:
anyway nothing really happened recently.
It. Just. The. Same. Rountine. Almost. Everyday.

having major headache now. i'm going to sleep.
tata! (:

2010-04-09T04:31:00.002+08:00

Hello! : D it's been a long time since i'd lasted post. Today is our first month, no idea how we're gonna celebrate but to what i know we might be going east coast park and ton. I'll write till here, am tired gonna have some rest. :D

1week 6days.

2010-03-21T13:48:00.002+08:00

1 week 6 days ♥ and counting.

1. baby is on his way to woodlands, i'm going to meet him.
2. gonna catch a movie. (:
3. first dating. wooo ohhhh!!!!
4. after a day am able to meet him. (:
5. hope it will be a pleasent day.
6. i'm wearing dress today, despite feeling uncomfortable in it. -.-
7. dropped my blackberry twice for today. -.- shag!
8. maybe am meeting ailin. who knows, later her mum play stun again. -.-
9. max tune? study? unsure.
10. have to be home tonight no ton-ing. having school tomorrow. (:

that's all folk. (:

love.

2010-03-10T04:51:00.001+08:00

i'm so in love with him. (:
"Are we even together? -.-" favourite quote. (:

stressed over a lot of things.
studies is a stone that blocks me from what i really wants.
hais, i'm so fup. ):

attracted

2010-03-08T02:58:00.000+08:00

He attracted my attention. (:
He's the one that I feel happy being beside with. (:
He didn't sleep just to make a morning call to wake me up, touched. <3
He made me feel he's the one for me. (:
We have common interest. (:

I like/love him as who is he no matter is he or not attached.
You're mine. :D

changed

2010-02-26T02:05:00.002+08:00

i'm not the kelly you guys used to know.
i smoked, drink, skipped school, ignoring my
family. i'm very bad now. i don't wish to change back
to my old self. i don't wish to get hurt anymore.

he's heartless so be it. i don't care. i have my own
life to live. he's just a passerby who just stop for 2 month
and 21 days. he's just a stranger to me so am i do him.

i'll just act as if i have never seen him, hug him, kiss him before.
this way will be easier for me to forget him.

bye people.

spring cleaning

2010-02-09T17:16:00.001+08:00

spring clean, my room.
it's nice, clean, cosy & brighter.

my eyes is so tired.
cried too much. ):

Bobo, my ham ham.

2010-02-08T23:04:00.003+08:00

Bobo, my new ham ham.
can't upload the photo no idea what had happened.
i'll post it up next time.

anyway bobo just told me she will love me
more than i love her and bobo promised
me she won't leave me alone when i'm sad.
bobo say she will be my listening ear even
though she won't answer me back.

bobo thank you. i love you. (:

$100+ spent

2010-02-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

I spent $100+ today.
didn't even regret a bit.
how i wish i have $2000 in hand now,
in order to renovate my room. ):

money! money! money!

Change of my room.

2010-02-06T00:47:00.003+08:00

EKTOR (Lumbar cushion)

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Length 70 cm .
Width 40 cm.

Blekinge pink $19.90

No. X2 = $39.80

Klippan (cover two-seat sofa)

Granan Red $50.00

No. X1 = $50.00

MELDAL (day-bed frame Single (Mattress sold separately))

Black-brown $199.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Length 196 cm.
Width 96 cm.
Height 96 cm.
Mattress length 189 cm.
Mattress width 92 cm.

No. X1 = $ 199.00

REGOLIT (pendant lamp)

White $8.90

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Diameter 60 cm

No. X1 = $8.90

SARITA (pair of curtains 145x250 cm)

Cerise $15.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Length 250 cm
Width 145 cm
Weight 0.30 kg
Area 7.25 m²

No. X1 = $15.00

GOSA KLATT (pillow, side/back sleeper)

33x50 cm $7.90

No. X2 = $15.80

JAREN (sprung mattress SINGLE)

Grey $79.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Length 189 cm.
Width 92 cm.
Thickness 10 cm.

No. X1 = $79.00

GRANAT (cushion)

50x50 cm Red $4.50

No. X2 = $9.00

EXPEDIT (coffee table)

118x59 cm glass/ Walnut effect $119.00

No. X1 = $119.00

ANEBODA (wardrobe)

Transparent white/ birch effect $119.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Width 81 cm
Depth 50 cm
Height 180 cm

No. X1 = $119.00

MALM (occasional table)

Red $99.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Width 125 cm
Depth 36 cm
Height 73 cm

No. X1 = $99.00

MYKEN (table mirror)

Dark Brown $19.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Width 25 cm.
Height 37 cm

No. X1 = $19.00

ORGEL VRETEN (floor lamp)

Natural/ steel $89.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Width 24.5 cm.
Height 154 cm.
Cord length 2.8 m.

No. X1 = $89.00

ERIKSLUND PICT 72X32 BEACH

Picture (beach) $19.00

Item Measurements/ Dimensions
Width 72 cm
Height 32 cm

No. X1 = $19.00

Total: $880.50 + paint = (roughly) $1000

Gonna save like mad, no choice but i seriously want
my room to be very pretty (chio)! Jiayou!
Deadline: 31 march 2011 (:

Plus additional of $1500.00 for a lappy.
Totsl: $2500~
gonna work very hard during this year end school hoilday

overcoming

2010-01-26T01:24:00.003+08:00

tests, exam coming up like flood.
non-stopping. i need a life, man!
school, home, max tune, dinner, home.
it's repeating over and over again.

i know sec 5 gonna be harder then previous
years, but studies is occupying all my freedom.

I'm gonna break free! I need air to breath!
Ahahahahahahaha......!!!!!

School

2010-01-25T02:52:00.003+08:00

Why am i in sec 5?
-Because i want my o level cert.

Then why am i disliking school once again?
-Classmates? Studies? Time? Stress?

i can't get in mind what i seriously want or need?
am i just going back sec 5 just to prove to my dad,
i'm able to? or i'm going back to build up my own future?

i need someone to talk to but who? i'm able to cope with
o level stuff but not my class. ya, i'm stupid. coming up
till so far and now saying i want to give up! no one will even
understand how it feel when your classmate look down on you
and even tease you. i know my english is very bad but why not
correct me but to tease me? put yourself in others shoe first!
if keeping quiet gonna make my life easier in school then i'll
just bloodly keep my mouth shut!

all you guys out there just think teasing others and that person
doesn't fight back is alright. you are FUCKING WRONG!
is just that, that person can't be bothered or is too hurt to even
answer back!

i'm gonna go school! i'm gonna prove to him, I'M NOT WEAK!

Money!

2010-01-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

for god sake! i need money!
i'm seriously in need of money!
i can't work only till o's over then i'm able.
dad been giving me lesser and lesser money.
i'm dying. i crave for a samsung corby till now
i'm unable to save up to the sum. ): what am i suppose
to do? i want a itouch too. no money no itouch no corby.
i have no one to borrow money from. ):
i know they are purely needs but i want them. ):

i fucking unhappy about it now!

any way to earn fast cash, without me neglecting my
studies. ):

Craving

2010-01-23T17:43:00.002+08:00

i'm craving for strawberries.
i'm wishing that 2010 will end fast.
i'm wishing that i'll be happier as day pass by.
i wish he will love me more than i do.
i wish i'll not cry anymore.
i wish i'll not be left alone.
i hate being lonely.

i wish angel will fulfill my wishes and hopes.

Happy Second month

2010-01-21T15:00:00.001+08:00

Happy second month, baby. (:

* i spent my second month at home,
rotting. baby have project to do. so
gonna skip today.*

First month.
we spent it by quarrelling through the
whole day. hais.
hope the next few month are going to be nicer. (:

Revisiting your past.

2010-01-15T02:10:00.002+08:00

Just found my old photo.
Didn't expect i'd changed this much.
In size, looks, photo taking angle.

Latest (:

see the difference? (:
alright people, good night.

sad.

2010-01-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

his mum doesn't seem to like me.
he doesn't seem to notice.
i was treated like a transparent idiot.

he doesn't even bother to message me
even he got his phone back. i have no one
to talk too. i feel like crying.

how am i suppose to tell him, "hey baby,
your mum seem to dislike me." why?
"because when i call her she doesn't even
care she just stare at me similarly when i
say goodbye to her." ended up he will be
telling me "baby, you're thinking too much
my mum didn't dislike you at all"
imagine that will you still bother to even tell him?

ya he'd been this way ever since i'm with him.
just like what my bro always says give him time
to change. ailin, don't think too much, why not
just tell him about what you think.

hais, i don't seem to have time to trouble about
this anymore. O level this year, just let thing be
this way. T.T

人因爱, 伤过几次都还是会继续去爱的。

Hopes that thing last.

2010-01-03T04:45:00.003+08:00

baby been treating me very nicely after that
day. this will last right? i'm very happy for this two
day. (: even though we can't spend much time
together anymore, but yet i'm still happy cause
baby do care for me much more than before. :D
cheers!

anyway tomorrow school's reopening.
going back Teck Whye Secondary as a Sec 5 student.
new topic, new studying environment, new teacher and
maybe new classmate?
strive hard for 2010 till nov i'll be free (:
cheers! bye! (:
love you guys.

happy 2010!

2010-01-02T05:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2010!

01.01.10 worst day ever.
yet i manage to clear things up.
things should be getting better than before. (:

OMG!

2009-12-30T11:38:00.001+08:00

i can't believe that i'm like crying everyday.
andric is happy everyday how good can it be?
hais, i'm still choose to believe we're fated together.

4 days more to school reopening. ):/(:

recently.

2009-12-29T07:53:00.004+08:00

good morning people. (:
you will be wondering, why am i up this early?
reason is simple. i had a dream which was a nightmare in my point of view.
what kind of nightmare?
scary nightmare? no.
it was about the topic that i were talking
with my boy before i sleep, about him feeling insecure towards me.
ailin said it was a "link dream."

in the dream i was dump by him.
why? because he left with another girl.
the girl in my dream have much better
quality than i do. good looking, small
size. what i does not have she have it all.
after being shocked up, i am unable to get back to sleep .
those insecurities i had gave him, was my bad.
no matter how many time i had apologise,
i doubt it was able to cover back those insecurities i had gave.

school starting in 6 days time.
lesser time with him. ):
he once said "we must balance our time."
our time - friends & girlfriend/boyfriend.
how to? when i feel that his friends mean much
more to him than me. never had he being mine,
just he & me for a day. T.T

i just want a normal relationship.
a relationship that do spare both of us time together.
i am starting school soon, so is he.
ever since we are together we had never had a
day together, just the both of us.
a month & 8 days never had we been on
a date. everyday seem to end with quarrel.
i am so scare, i dislike quarrel so do others.
no one in this world like quarreling.
i am tired of trying. i had tried very hard not to piss
him off. ended up, i made it worst.
what should i do? i did tried my best
to please him. yet i am always doing the wrong thing.

i am not yet giving up. i will still try my best.
我会努力的, 我是不会放弃的.

6 more days

2009-12-28T02:28:00.002+08:00

6 more days, i will be back to my normal secondary life.
this upcoming year will be tough for me.
no matter how bad others going to judge on my english standard.
i will still strive hard. i choose to believe if i work hard there will be
a better repay for my hard work. i will not stay out of school for no reason.
i will still go to school even though i'm very sick.
it is going to be like my past hockey training.
coach used to say "you can choose not to come for the training if only
you are very sick. example, like as if you're gonna die."
this quote is gonna be use on 2010.

strive hard kelly. (:
bye people. cheers!

i'm gonna be fine.

2009-12-25T05:56:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna be very fine.
i'm content with what i have now.
max tune, family, friends, boy & studies.
for me to realise that i'm living my life happily.
without any hesitating about moving on.

first thing i'm gonna do is to strive hard on studies.
keep the communication between my parents & i neutral.
brush up the skill for max tune.
keep close bonding with my friends.
not quarreling over small matters of things with my boy.
with all this things will just pass by smoothly.

bless that all this will happen in 2010.
good day people & MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

should i or shouldn't i?

2009-12-23T02:29:00.001+08:00

should i even be in a relationship?
i don't even think i'm able to handle it.

What's up?

2009-12-22T06:39:00.002+08:00

Hey, people!
what are you guys up to recently?
i'd just done my rigstration for sec 5,
which is next year 2010.
can't wait. hope i'll do well for next year o's.
alright goodbye people.

currently addiction: 海派甜心, Max Tune. (:
recent event: happy one month & one day

Good result

2009-12-19T05:24:00.002+08:00

Thanks god for loving me.
I'd scored well for my N level result.
15 point. (:
English : Four
Math: Four
Combined Humanities: Four
Science (Phy/Chem): Three
Design & Technology: Three
Chinese: One
Chinese(Oral/Aural): Distinction

Overall, i'm able to get into sec 5 or higher nitec courses.
I'm choosing to get into higher nitec.
goodbye.

Sick?

2009-11-30T07:12:00.004+08:00

having headache, sore eye, gastric & heavy flu symptoms.
feeling so sick. should i even go out today?

there's still school library fine not paid yet.
i'm still wondering why do i owe school library money?
i'm feeling very sick. D:

baby, you must be sleeping now ba.
i'm missing you. ):

i hope i'm rich. it's time to store up my drawers again.
more tee-shirt & dress, but first of all money will be the
issue. D:

recently have been scare. N level will soon be out.
been having those weird dreams about my result.
may god bless me to pass my N level with flying
colours. *having hipcup while typing*

i think i'll start perparing myself to go out.
soh kian ann surely will be late again.
zao-lor kia outing. :D

thrasing out things in my mind, which
doesn't seem to link up at all. (:
i wish i could fly. :D

I still believe that love exist

2009-11-25T05:10:00.004+08:00

I still believe that, love exist.
21.11.09; 02.29am
a brand new chapter of a love story.
may us last long. (:
♥ i love you, baby.

♥

wishes them to be happy together.

goodbye. :D

i'm still here breathing now.

2009-11-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

i'm still here breathing now.
miss me? i'm addicted to max tune
recently. my car is super chio la!
KeLLy. (: Evo 9.
Love you, KeLLy. (:

anyway you people can pop by
causeway point arcade. maybe you'll
be able to see me there, playing
max tune. (:

yesterday was a terrible day.
i'll forget about it and live on with my
happy life. nothing will ever make me fall.
losing doesn't really matter to me
anymore. i'll show those who look down on me
that i'm living happily. i'm not that easy to be bring
down! (:

lalalalala, i've nothing to blog about for now.
i'll be going le ba. (:
see ya. remember to miss me.
plus my phone had spoiled so i had lost
some of you guys contact. ):
apologise if i asked who you are. ):
goodbye, love you people. :)

Twin

2009-11-12T02:53:00.002+08:00

never will you expect someone to
have the same birthday as you,
same surname, same class jersey
number and most of all working
with you.

there's a friend which i make,
when i'm working in taka event.
her name is lorraine. her birthday
was same as mine, class jersey number
too, same surname too. we're calling each
other twin.

in this world it's rare to have this type of
coincides. i'm shock and yet happy too.
i have someone which i know same birthday
as me. (: yeah! cheers!

amy dear, if you do pass by my blog do tag me.
this apply to all those people who you know me!

Ticket Distributor

2009-11-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

Interested in working as a ticket distributor?!
Earning hundreds per event & free entry for all parties!
vacancy available for all. Bonus will be rewarded to your
hardwork. No age limit or requirement. Contact me via
smile-superkellyy@hotmail.com 97314958 now!!!

How's life?

2009-11-05T22:22:00.002+08:00

How's life?
hey, people how's life?
i enjoy mine to the fullest.
it being very long since i last online.
miss me? anyway, now is count as
a short break from work. next tuesday,
i'll be back to work in takashimaya again.

by then i won't be onlining again.
continue missing me eh.
love you, people. (:

I still miss him.

2009-10-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hey people, anyone of you misses me?
I can say I do miss someone. I know
he doesn't miss me. I have said tons
of I miss him to him but he doesn't even
say anything. Awww... it's such a sad thing.
Anyway I'm alright. (:

Working is kinda of fun. I've know some friends.
They are seriously, a group of nice and friendly
people.

I'm missing a lot of things.

I'm missing 4F.
I'm missing candy-peace.
I'm missing whaskq.
I'm missing my friends.
I'm missing HIM! ):

I am young.

2009-10-12T10:32:00.002+08:00

Girls out there if you see this post
do go read out on it. Fauzi Rassull .
What he wrote is totally true, stop
thinking that keeping virginity is
totally uncool. In another way round
keeping virginity is totally the coolest
thing you could ever done. So if you
are attached and you're still a virgin,
kill those thinking about letting your boyfriend
have your first time, mean having him
to yourself. STOP BEING DUMB!
They will still dump you! Keep your
virginity to your husband. Keeping
yourself for marriage is the smartest choice.

Like what Fauzi Rassull said, "Follow your heart.
Don't care what others say to you.
So what if people make sucha big deal
of you being a virgin?"

I hope girls out there seriously understand
what this post meant. You'll regret after
giving your virginity to a wrong guy.

Changes in life.

2009-10-12T08:04:00.003+08:00

how about taking this half an hour,
to write about how wreck my life had gone?

first, friendship.
it's a total wreck.
mistrust & making use of one another.
no matter how wonderful our friendship is,
with this kind of things happening. it will
just wreck everything. i have the most
wonderful friend, i could ever have. yet, i
still couldn't see the good in them. once said
best friend mean loving them even they are not
perfect, yet in your eyes they are flawless. so,
lets talk about my friend.

---------------------------------------

1) Andric
Even though sometime what he
say I might not agree but yet just not to see him
upset I just agree. He's my friend, best
friend & brother. He may not really understand
me well but it is alright cause I never ever told
him what I truly like and love. Therefore, this might
be the cause of every misunderstanding. Andric, I love
you as my brother. (:
6 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

2) Ailin
She's the best sister I had ever had.
Yet because of some silly matters, it causes us
to have misunderstanding and barriers.
I admit at times I'm very childish to
talk bad about her. Sorry, Ailin.
But yet I do wish that we could simply overcome this.
I heard a lot from Andric, now it's you turn.
Hope everything just end.
8 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

3) Brendan
He's my bro since sec 1. He's the one who
changed me from a boy dressed looking girl
to a well dressed lady. He's always
there for me whenever I need him,
yet I'm not. I'm sorry for that. He is always
the one talking & listening to all my craps.
Thank you Brendan, I express myself really
well but I seriously thank you for everything
you done for me.
3 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

3) Danny
I know we been through a relationship,
and the ending wasn't very nice.
I could only apologises. But you're a very good
listener of mine. You listen to all my complains and
not giving any comment on it. I appreciated all of that.
I'm not good in expressing appreciation, I'm sorry.
Now, we are friend even though this friendship don't
seem to be very long but you know me better than
anyone else. Thank you for been there when I need you.
11 months & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

4) Jingyi
Another sis of mine, but not very close.
Maybe because we are unable to get close to one
another. Unable to communicate well or when we
are getting close I suddenly just went MIA. I'm
really sorry that I couldn't really help you much in
anything. But if you really needed any help just
give me a call I'll find any means to find a way to
help you out. (:
2 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

5) Joan
She's just a girl who treated her sis, like gold.
When they need anything from her, even mean
that she has to sacrifice herself, she's still willing
to. I may not know her well but I can say she's
very kind & helpful. When ever I need any kind
of help from her, she's willing to give her best to
help me. Hey sis, thank you from all you had done. (:
Appreciated.
5 months & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

6) Kelly
She's my clone, only in name. We have different
character & personalities. We are not as close as
in the past but yet we still often contact one another.
She's just a dumbo who will always find fault on me.
I still like her as who she is. (: Hey Kelly, do contact
more & meet up soon.
3 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

7) Miko
She's my dear milo, a pretty close classmates
in class and friend since P4. She help me out on
my homework, as I often skip school. She didn't
really grumble. But I do know I'm troublesome.
Sorry Miko. Plus plus plus, we might be going to
the same ITE. (: Thank you Miko in helping me out
when I skipped school. Love you.
7 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

8) Tammy
Tummy sucker, I'm posting about you. (:
She's the one who always point to my face and
name me with all kinds of weird names. She
listen to my complains & I listen to hers. It's
like both of us sharing complains. XD
She a person who say and comment things
straight forwardly. Pretty good.
3 years & counting. (:

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9) Weiyi
A hyperactive girl, who just act weirdly
at times but SHE'S VERY SMART!
She's the first girl I knew when I'm
in Teck Whye Secondary. At first, she's
very quiet but later on noise starts and guess
what it's from her. (: She's very cheerful,
outgoing too. Thursday is her birthday
so remember to wish her happy birthday.
3 years & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

10) Weikang
I know there's a long period ever since his
name appeared on my blog. His birthday is
coming therefore I'd planned to celebrate for him.
I know it's weird that I suddenly wanted to
celebrate for him. Cause during those period
I seriously can't find anything in common to
talk to him about therefore I didn't really contact him.
Anyway I just think Weikang didn't really changed,
it just that he's much more obsessed in MT than before.
11 months & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

11) Chew Zitong
I just love pronouncing her full name. (:
She's the dumbo that I told most of my
things too. Not totally trust but yet,
the only person I could feel safe talking too.
I'm like her mother, give her money, bring
her to school, let her sleep on my bed, buy
clothes for her & last of all protect her until
like she's my child. Chew Zitong you should feel
very bless about this. I love you, and remember
you must be guai don't get scolded by your parents
again. =.=
5 months & counting. (:

---------------------------------------

If there's any mistake pardon me.
I dislike checking my post again.
I'll post the second thing that I cause to wreck my life. (:
See ya.

Ended a realtionship, I'm single.

2009-10-11T03:43:00.001+08:00

Ended a realtionship, I'm single.

Nothing really matters whether I'm single ot not.
Maybe I'm seriously to young to be in a relationship.
Studies, family, friends do come first.

Andric, Joan, Zitong, Brendan, Ailin & Jingyi. (:
Friends do come first then anything.
Joan sis thanks for being bby my side,
helping me to slove things. Appreciated.

N level ending soon

2009-10-07T10:45:00.000+08:00

N level ending soon (:

Thanks For Celebrating My Birthday.

2009-09-28T13:42:00.002+08:00

Thanks For Celebrating My Birthday.

Joan, Ailin, Andric, Zitong, Chenyi (Zhipeng),
Brendan, Danny (Ahgao).

Recent Photo.

Happy Birthday KELLY!
Thanks to those that wished me.
Love you people.

Baby thanks for the panda, I love it.
7 days to N's.

不屑

2009-09-16T18:49:00.002+08:00

不屑

事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见
瞬间就统统消灭

人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血
悲伤也不会流泪

不需要有同类
传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念
自我安慰

就让我伪装
我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留我最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎
如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟着你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解

如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年
如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许有一天我们会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍

Guys Can't Be Trust

2009-09-16T02:53:00.003+08:00

Guys Can't Be Trust

Purely because of my past relationship,
had me on a very deep phobia. He lied.
He's been appearing in my dreams. It
scared me off. I want him to be gone.
He was never faithful. He used to said
when I'm with you I've never taken any girls
number. Lie! When you're attached you see
& get others girls number. This is mentally
unfaithful. I hate you even deeper.
Making you suffer is equal to making me suffer too.

What's wrong with you guys?
Girls aren't meant to be a toy, to be play.
Don't even trust the one who's beside you,
they might have mentally or physically betrayed you.

Girls have to be stronger!

Best boyfriend.

2009-09-11T03:14:00.001+08:00

After chatting with Andrea,
I found out Ahgao you're actually
a very very nice boyfriend. You say
sweet & nice things to me. You care
about how I feel. I really do love you
baby. I'm so in love now. (:

Life's getting better than before.

2009-09-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

Life's getting better than before.

Andric, Brendan, Zitong & Ahgao (Baby),
classmates plus some of my internet friends.

They changed me, I've be more positive thinking.
I'm happier with my life now.

I'm starting to be a voyeur, happy to be one. (:

The Way I Do.

2009-09-10T00:47:00.001+08:00

The Way I Do.

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
..the way I do
[x2]

Thanks Willie for this song.
It's so nice. (:

BANG BANG

2009-09-09T03:07:00.001+08:00

*BANG BANG*

Chatting with weeloon & andrea. (:

9 September 2009

2009-09-08T23:59:00.003+08:00

She may think I've choose to ingore her.
She's wrong. I'm always here for her.
I didn't contact her it's because, many
thing had happened. I don't know how to face
up to it. Chua Ailin you can make it seem to
be all my fault, I'm alright with it.

I've never treat you as a gan. You jolly well know
me, I dislike having gans. I treat you
as my real blood sister as similar as to how I
treat andric. You may think soh & kang is better.
Then I've nothing more to say. I've never hope
you would flunk your O's. Isn't it similar to you
not wanting me to do badly for my N's?

Maybe someone had said something to you. I don't
know & I'm not commenting about anything. Having
me out of life, is what you want the alright I'll respect your
decision. I'll be out of your life. The way you're living
now is what makes you happy. Then I'll be happy for you too.

I'll never leave you alone. I'll still be here only if you do
want to believe it or not. I'm done with what I'm going to
say. That's all, decision is for you to make.

I posting this portion for C.zitong.

Zitong Father: Nan ren dou bu shi hao ren (Guys are all bad)
Zitong: Wo Dong (I know)
Zitong: Wo Dong (I know)
Zitong: Wo Dong (I know)
Zitong Father: Don't tell my wife.
Zitong: *Laughing away*

This a funny convo. (:

080909

2009-09-08T11:31:00.004+08:00

I'm currently at ahgao's house.
Later I'm having Social Studies exam.
Wish me luck eh. (:

Bear bear waving at me, with ahgao holding him. (:
*I'm happier now, happier than me being with you.

7th September 2009

2009-09-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

Baby this post is just for you to see.
Drink more RED BULL okay?

Cause RED BULL gives you WINGS. (:

Don't you mistreat JONATHAN (Something that only me & him know).
I'm happy everyday with you by my side. (:
I'm in love. (:
More smiley face will appear now.

Lame post but I'm content.

5 September 2009

2009-09-06T01:44:00.004+08:00

5 September 2009

(Happiest day of my life)

Upcoming video:
Venue: Cine Leisure KouFu
Featuring: Zitong, Danny & Kelly Laughter.
00:33s Kelly's Finger (:
Describe: He's going to do funny faces. (:

Upcoming Photos:
Featuring: Kelly & Danny (:

Featuring: Zitong & Kelly

Featuring: Andric & Kelly

Featuring: Andric & Danny

Featuring: Superkellyy (:

Another day had gone.
Things are fading away.
I'm not as stubborn as before.
I've let go of memories that I should have
forget 3 months ago. Things are going pretty
smoothly. I'm happier than before.
I've not been crying recently.
Dan, Andric & Zitong was always there
when I need them. Peeps, having you
is more than enough. Jingyi I'm
waiting for you to come back from beijing.
You said before you would always be there
for me when I need you. Come back soon,
I miss you! (:

I've let go of everything. (:

Things that had changed

2009-09-02T11:53:00.002+08:00

Things that had changed

1) Not able to go out in one big group.
2) Not been very happy recently.
3) Health is not as good as before.
4) Studies seem to have dropped.
5) Lost interest in everything I used to like.
6) Craving for Strawberry Red Tea.
7) Dislike chocolate.
8) Dislike Strawberry yogurt.
9) Dislike guys who wear hairband.
10) Dislike guys who hangs around in arcade.

Things had changed, I had changed too.
This will be me for now. After N's we shall see.
5 days more to the start of N's.
No time to fret about relationship matters.

I have someone who love me without any condition.
I am content. Having him/her by my side everyday,
I'll be happy. Thank you ahgao, andric, zitong. (:
You three are the best to be with when I'm weak.
I love you guys.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

2009-09-01T03:08:00.002+08:00

First I'll be saying

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!

Second I'll be saying is

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!

I LOVE YOU! <3

Third I'll be saying is

I'LL BE GOING CHANGI AIRPORT

IN THE AFTERNOON TO STUDY.

IT'S GONNA BE A HAPPY DAY OUT TODAY!

Danny Chan read more books later (:

Fourth I'll be saying is

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!
Danny chan you promise to bring me go take

Singapore Flyer de must REMEMBER HOR!

Restart

2009-09-01T00:46:00.003+08:00

Restart

After the chat I had with you.
I realise things can't be back as
what it was in the past. I understand.
You have your life, I have mine.
We maybe friends, but the care for me
or you will be stronger than normal
friends.

You was once the guy I'm willing to
use my life to exchange for your safety.
Now, you won't be the one, cause I'm taking
away the priority you have.

Move on is what everyone had said to me.
It is easy to say but it is hard to do.
Now no matter how hard it is going to be,
I'll just run without stopping.

My heart still have you in it, but slowly I'll
remove you away. I'm packing up everything
that I have with you in a box. Maybe this will
be the only way. You have moved on yet I'm
still stuck here, unable to move.

This teaches me a lesson. Don't put your heart into
something that you are still unsure about.

I love you but I'm removing you away.
Goodbye. I'm starting afresh, this time is for
real. You have moved on, so am I.

You're not heartless, you're doing the right
thing. Thanks for teaching me to be stronger.

Healing up those broken smile & wound.
After that I'll be fine. (:

A little this a little that.

2009-08-29T00:11:00.002+08:00

A little this a little that.

Spice up everyday brightly.
Be it happy or sad.
Life have to continue.

Currently have no dream to be fulfill.
Just hope to finish my N's and get out of
Teck Whye Secondary School.

*spitted blood just now. If I'm dying this
is a good signal. I'm waiting to die. (:

Choose a way for me.

2009-08-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

Choose a way for me.

1) Be with the one I love.
2) Be with the one that make me happy.
3) Just fuck off their life and rot myself.

I think I'll choose (3).
I cause them to be hurt.
I should just fuck off their life.
Rotting myself will be easier.
Just be similar like Sec 3.
Wake up, school, home, eat, study, use com, sleep.
Wake up, school, home, eat, study, use com, sleep.

Make it a routine for everyday.
Isn't this way better?
Just be drown by books rather then guilt.
I'm sorry to both of you.

Goodbye people.
I won't be onlining anymore till N's had end.
I won't answer call that's it's number is not,
shown on my contact list. I'll only
reply message if only you tell me who you are.
If not don't bother contacting me, I just want
to be alone.

The world won't change for me.

2009-08-20T00:28:00.003+08:00

The world won't change for me.
(Only I, must change to suit the world.)

I've got 3 (D) for my Chinese O's.
Not a good result.):

Recently having headaches and been vomiting.
Later morning I maybe going to see doctor.
Aches all around my body. Getting weaker.
Not trying to run away from school again or what.
Is that I'm really feel very sick. Recently got
clings by a lot of things therefore I have no time
to see doctor.

OMG! My blog is getting way out of hand. Scolding of
keyboard warriors, becoming emo, all those
funny funny stuff are all here.

My blog should be a happy blog. I shall not post any
unhappy stuff.

Oh ya, be happy for Ailin she got 1 (D) for her Chinese
O's. If you see her, pass by her blog, message/ call her
do remember to congrats her.

Goodbye people.
Sleep tight & remember the lunar 7th month had start. (:

Keyboard Warrior!

2009-08-18T17:34:00.004+08:00

Keyboard Warrior!
ur mom fly away: Hey loser, I'm here waiting for you.
You think you are very good looking ar, to judge Andric looks.
Plus Andric don't need you to give him money. He's not a beggar,
maybe it could be opposite wor.
HE HAVE TO DONATE YOU MONEY INSTEAD WOR!
You this loser only dare comment people
behind the computer screen to gain people attention.
Maybe this plan of yours do really work out, however you had
gained attention from me. You should be freaking proud of it. (:

Addition:
-Try commenting more about Andric, you'll see what you would gain or lose. (:
-If you're from his school, I'm so interested to know who you are.
-If you're from other school or just a hater, then you can kindly
get lost. You're just trying to gain attention from others. No one
will give you 100% attention expect for me. (:
-Last of all, loser write your NAME down la if you want spam others!
Oh, I know why you dare not write down your name is it because your mum and dad
had given you a disgraceful name, that was why
you dare not write it down. Oh man, I pity you. My heart goes for you. )':

I'll be waiting for you to reply my dear keyboard warrior! (:

Goodbye my past.

2009-08-18T13:52:00.003+08:00

Goodbye my past.

What's wrong with me?
Why think back about the past?
I should be moving on and leaving
them behind. I shall only focus on my
studies now. Let the past be hidden nicely,
without digging them up again.
041108 and 270209 this two date will
never appear in front of me any more.
Both of this two date will be hidden away.

Future holds in my hand, I decide how my life
goes. No one can determine how my life works.
Fate is what that determine who I would be with.

Maybe I should move on at a faster pace now,
so that the past won't catch up with me. Running
far away from it. I'll hide from it. I know now what
I said make it sounded as if I'm a loser. Yes, I am a
loser. I don't dare to admit a lot of things.

I know myself very well. I just don't wish to admit that's
me. I love to cry but not in front of my friend. I don't like
to admit I'm wrong. I have short temper. I talk loudly.
I don't listen to explaination. I dislike people guiding me.
I love to be at the background. I don't feel comfortable when
a lot people put attention on me. I don't like to dress up.
I'm very lazy. I like to demand people to do things. I dislike
studying in the afternoon. I like going out even if that means
alone. I love going to parks alone or with a friend (listening ear).
I love running, it helps me release stress.

To: Supporter of that idiot

2009-08-18T00:35:00.004+08:00

To: Supporter of that idiot.

Don't bother to tell how he's well being and where abouts.
I'm not bother to know. I've say clearly to him. DANNY and
ME won't bother his life anymore. Want blame people. Just come
blame on me la. Those people out there no sense of life de.
I'll maybe changing my url again soon. I'll only give those who's
close to me. Fuck off idiot!

You people think that idiot is right and you want to side him.
Please go, Kelly won't stop you. Losing friends like you people
I don't bother. What's friends for? Ask yourself la, sister/brother!
Get a life la. Think before what you people say la.

Mood less

2009-08-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

Mood less. Cut my finger twice today,
due to carelessness and unable to focus.

Bleed a lot. Thanks to miko for putting
plaster for me.

Don't really wish to bother about anything now.
I want to lead a simple life. No quarreling anymore.
Hais. Schoolmates is who I like the most for now.

Things is getting complicated. )':

Pictures Day

2009-08-16T03:35:00.002+08:00

*Click to have a clearer view. (:

Love story. ♥

Graduation Photo

2009-08-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

I look very chubby. (:
Anyway this is my graduation photo.
This will be in my N level portfolio.
Laugh at the photo. XD

I'm happy today.

2009-08-13T19:53:00.001+08:00

Morning I had a tiff with my mum.
Went school around 1plus. Did my
D&T project. Met Brendan and Weiyi
in the canteen. Chit-chat awhile,
started off taking picture. (:

Pray for ailin aunt.

2009-08-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

Ailin aunt had departed from this world.
Passing on to another. Let's pray for her
to have a better afterlife.

People change

2009-08-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

People do change.
Recently even my closer sis,
I found she changed. I don't want
to face the truth but I was force to.
Why? I seriously hate it. Just a simple
break up cause so much problem. It seem
so dramatic. On your blog, your post seem
to be like, you are blaming me for causing you
to be in this way now. What you really want?

I choose my own happiness. Stop trying to
make everyone pity you. You did this to me once.
I never cried just to get pity. Crying won't
help you in getting what you want. That's dumb.

Friday I'll be talking to you, but it won't be
about us. I think there's no need to talk about us anymore.
After that I think we won't be meeting each other so often.
We would be walking different ways ba.

Recent event.

2009-08-08T01:28:00.004+08:00

Recent Event

1) I'm very obsessed with the
photo I put in my profile. (:
(I think I look nice in that picture,
but in person I think I look yucky.)

2) I'm moving on with my life.

3)I'm not going back school,
I'm planning to stay at home to
study for N's. (Provided my daddy
willing to go school, see my vice-principal.)

4) 080809; 12.16am ♥

What a Day!

2009-08-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

I'm just here to post a picture.
I know my blog is all about those
alibaba stuff. Nothing related to
my life. I like it this way. I think
it's nicer. Want to know me more just
add me in MSN, chat with me not by
seeing my blog.(:

PINK IS THE HOTTEST COLOUR!

Night Walking

2009-08-05T00:10:00.002+08:00

Night Walking

Recently, I like to go for night walking
with DANNY. (:
He's freaking damm nice. What a good listener
he is. Listen to all my crap, nags, complain.
Hahas. Nothing much happen recently.
Just that I got so use to walking at night. (:

Home study is what I want.
School don't give me what I want.

Sis & Bro

2009-08-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

My Love Ones.

Ailin

Andric

Jingyi

Kian Ann

Miko

Weikang

Tammy

Zitong

&&&Danny & Brendan.

*Picture is according to ABC. (:

My left eye is swollen

2009-07-30T13:53:00.001+08:00

My left eye is swollen

Due to 敏感 (sensitive to seafood).
That seafood I ate was fake seafood eh.
Instant cup noodles de. I thought I'm
going to be blind. So scary. I swear,
I'll take good care of my eyes from
today onwards. (=

Let it be.

2009-07-27T11:45:00.000+08:00

Let it be.

Yes, I admit I am 2 faced.
Every human are two faced.
No one is pure. If you people
dare to scold me why not write
your name down. Use what passerby
or 111. Isn't that childish. If you
ae sec 4 this year than I have to say,
hey please be mature. The way you are
acting now is fucking childish. Write
your name down. You dare to comment on
others but why you have no guts to write
your fucking name down? I am not angry about
what you wrote. I am angry about you dare not
put your name down. Hey what's wrong with you
people. Blog belongs to that owner and their
friend. You this type of loser there spamming.
Seriously, you people are childish and are freaking
loser!