I'm trying very hard to forget..

I'm trying hard to forget about the past
few month. Guilt, sadness, emotional
breakdown all of this is conquering me.

Silence, darkness, bring fear to me.
Guilt is overcoming me easily, no matter
how hard I'm fight back hard but I'll always
be the one losing. Emotional breakdown, bring
hot tears streaming down my face. Tears
that's so salty.

Trying hard to stop myself from thinking
others are detesting me is hard. I know it's
not right to think too much but I just can't.

I'm trying very hard to be like the usual me but I
just failed. Fake smile, fake craziness, everything
seem so real to others but deep inside it's fake.

Taking away a precious life kills me deep.
That scar would never be recover. I'm a
sentimental person, I'll remember the past
very easily. Wanting to forget about
it is a hard task.

I know parents don't come between us
because the one I love is you and so right you.
Yet this is also not stopping me from having
negative thoughts. I want to stop all this I
know it's irritating you. I've been telling
you give me time, but yet I'm letting my
thoughts run wild and now it's getting
out of hands. I'm sorry.

Now I know no matter how long time past,
I'll never forget about this incident. I'll always
remember this date 27.Feb.2009.
Baby I'll always love you! You was once belong to me.