Sometime I'm so scare about those around me. They're so important to me that i'm scare they will hurt me badly. ): I don't show temper because I don't think there's a need but seriously I'm still a human. I've emotional too. Don't say things too directly, it hurts inside and i'm only not showing. I can take jokes but yet know your limits. I know I speak loudly and I act differently when I'm happy but this me. What else you want? A unhappy me that don't smile at all? A me that don't even talk when you ask me a question? I know people do get jealous but for what?! I'm not stealing anything away at all. I just wanna be me. A girl who will laugh out loudly when I'm happy. I don't wanna restrict myself just to please everyone. I'm tired. I did a lot and don't tell me no one sees it?! )'; I really hate growing up. People are getting much two-faced and becoming a hypocrite.

I seriously don't understand myself.
Why am i holding on to you, when you wanna let me go?
I'm just this stubborn. I don't know how to let go.
I hate it whenever i see your FB appear new girls.
I hate it when they flirt you.
I can't do anything about it, but cry behind the computer screen.
I'm just this useless.
I dislike it this way.
I want to fight to get you back.
But by using what? )':

I don't think i even matter to you anyway.
I'm just a crybaby. I acted strong in front
but deep inside i'm dying.

He's still the one I misses the most.
He seem happier than before.
Maybe what my sissy and bro told me is true.
Breaking is just an excuse to free himself?

I don't know. I dare not think about it.
I stopped crying for my sissy and bro's sake!
I don't wish them to be unhappy because of me.

P.s: I used to be a girl who believe in true love,
But I'm wrong. Cause love comes in terms and condition.
Nothing in this world is free.

P.s: I don't know what got into me but I just think
guys are bloody childish! I'm starting to detest them!
I can't understand what they're thinking about. I'm
so not gonna find a boyfriend till I think I'm ready
to be fucking hurt again. -.-"

We broke up.
At least we're still friend, what else can I possibly ask for?
Despite wanting to be more than your friend?
To everyone this is the best way ever.
I love you and j truly do, it still hurt deep inside.
When j see my phone pink LED lights up, I'm ultra happy
yet to be rational j have to admit i'm not yours anymore.

I don't need a perfect boyfriend.
I don't need a boyfriend who can accompany me 24/7.
I just néed a boyfriend who loves me and respect me as he do things.
You're wonderful as a boyfriend.
Thank you. (':

hi dead blog. (:
i'm currently at Jingyi's house.
my com is dead. ):
that means no more blogging unless I use someone else's com.

okay that's all.
3 paper more to go and O level will be so over. (: