i can't believe that i'm like crying everyday.
andric is happy everyday how good can it be?
hais, i'm still choose to believe we're fated together.

4 days more to school reopening. ):/(:

good morning people. (:
you will be wondering, why am i up this early?
reason is simple. i had a dream which was a nightmare in my point of view.
what kind of nightmare?
scary nightmare? no.
it was about the topic that i were talking
with my boy before i sleep, about him feeling insecure towards me.
ailin said it was a "link dream."

in the dream i was dump by him.
why? because he left with another girl.
the girl in my dream have much better
quality than i do. good looking, small
size. what i does not have she have it all.
after being shocked up, i am unable to get back to sleep .
those insecurities i had gave him, was my bad.
no matter how many time i had apologise,
i doubt it was able to cover back those insecurities i had gave.

school starting in 6 days time.
lesser time with him. ):
he once said "we must balance our time."
our time - friends & girlfriend/boyfriend.
how to? when i feel that his friends mean much
more to him than me. never had he being mine,
just he & me for a day. T.T

i just want a normal relationship.
a relationship that do spare both of us time together.
i am starting school soon, so is he.
ever since we are together we had never had a
day together, just the both of us.
a month & 8 days never had we been on
a date. everyday seem to end with quarrel.
i am so scare, i dislike quarrel so do others.
no one in this world like quarreling.
i am tired of trying. i had tried very hard not to piss
him off. ended up, i made it worst.
what should i do? i did tried my best
to please him. yet i am always doing the wrong thing.

i am not yet giving up. i will still try my best.
我会努力的, 我是不会放弃的.

6 more days, i will be back to my normal secondary life.
this upcoming year will be tough for me.
no matter how bad others going to judge on my english standard.
i will still strive hard. i choose to believe if i work hard there will be
a better repay for my hard work. i will not stay out of school for no reason.
i will still go to school even though i'm very sick.
it is going to be like my past hockey training.
coach used to say "you can choose not to come for the training if only
you are very sick. example, like as if you're gonna die."
this quote is gonna be use on 2010.

strive hard kelly. (:
bye people. cheers!

i'm gonna be very fine.
i'm content with what i have now.
max tune, family, friends, boy & studies.
for me to realise that i'm living my life happily.
without any hesitating about moving on.

first thing i'm gonna do is to strive hard on studies.
keep the communication between my parents & i neutral.
brush up the skill for max tune.
keep close bonding with my friends.
not quarreling over small matters of things with my boy.
with all this things will just pass by smoothly.

bless that all this will happen in 2010.
good day people & MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

should i even be in a relationship?
i don't even think i'm able to handle it.

Hey, people!
what are you guys up to recently?
i'd just done my rigstration for sec 5,
which is next year 2010.
can't wait. hope i'll do well for next year o's.
alright goodbye people.

currently addiction: 海派甜心, Max Tune. (:
recent event: happy one month & one day

Thanks god for loving me.
I'd scored well for my N level result.
15 point. (:
English : Four
Math: Four
Combined Humanities: Four
Science (Phy/Chem): Three
Design & Technology: Three
Chinese: One
Chinese(Oral/Aural): Distinction

Overall, i'm able to get into sec 5 or higher nitec courses.
I'm choosing to get into higher nitec.
goodbye.