good morning people. (:
you will be wondering, why am i up this early?
reason is simple. i had a dream which was a nightmare in my point of view.
what kind of nightmare?
scary nightmare? no.
it was about the topic that i were talking
with my boy before i sleep, about him feeling insecure towards me.
ailin said it was a "link dream."

in the dream i was dump by him.
why? because he left with another girl.
the girl in my dream have much better
quality than i do. good looking, small
size. what i does not have she have it all.
after being shocked up, i am unable to get back to sleep .
those insecurities i had gave him, was my bad.
no matter how many time i had apologise,
i doubt it was able to cover back those insecurities i had gave.

school starting in 6 days time.
lesser time with him. ):
he once said "we must balance our time."
our time - friends & girlfriend/boyfriend.
how to? when i feel that his friends mean much
more to him than me. never had he being mine,
just he & me for a day. T.T

i just want a normal relationship.
a relationship that do spare both of us time together.
i am starting school soon, so is he.
ever since we are together we had never had a
day together, just the both of us.
a month & 8 days never had we been on
a date. everyday seem to end with quarrel.
i am so scare, i dislike quarrel so do others.
no one in this world like quarreling.
i am tired of trying. i had tried very hard not to piss
him off. ended up, i made it worst.
what should i do? i did tried my best
to please him. yet i am always doing the wrong thing.

i am not yet giving up. i will still try my best.
我会努力的, 我是不会放弃的.