i'm not the Kelly N.W.Y in the past.
i'm not as strong as before.
i have millions of regrets in life but i can't change any of them.

recently i've gotten food poisoning it had seriously affected my gastric.
it's been 6 days and i'm still having diarrhea and still vomiting.
D: it's ultra torturing.

you guys will be thinking why i've change my blog skin picture.
because this is a picture that show how sweet we are in the past, unlike now.
he said that he feel hurt by me. ):

i never thought of hurting him but still he feel so.
hais, i can't focus on anything but him.
i been forcing myself to study and even though i do manage to get
notes in, yet still after studying when i'm left alone doing nothing
i'll be still missing him again.

i know you hate me to cry or hurt myself and every time
after i've hurt you, i'll only say sorry. this word "SORRY won't
be the cure of those harmful and harsh word you have receieve.
i won't say another word of sorry to you anymore. i'll promise
not to cry and hurt myself. i really love you. i hope you understand.

promises aren't meant to make to be broken.
i'll be a better girlfriend.