Ever thought of how will your Mr. Perfect be like?

I had thought of it but then I've never met one.
I just think there are no such thing as Mr.Perfect
instead we should change it to Mr.Ideal.
Someone who is somewhere similar to the type of guy
we girls wished for, but then he's still not totally perfect.

My type of guy.
Honest, truthful, faithful and owns a great sense of humor.
Seem easy, but is there even such guy in the world now?
Passionate but rocky or Calm but stable?
I choose calm but stable. I prefer a relationship that is much stable
I don't need an idol drama relationship. I just need a boyfriend
that loves me.

I'm working hard on that. (:
Wish me luck!

I miss out lots of meeting up with my friends because of this job,
thus I'm starting to drift away from them.
Yet i don't blame the job because of this job
I'd seen lots of things clearer than before.
I loss a sister and a handful of friends but I gain strength.
This strength that got me stronger than before.
This strength bring me courage to realise that this world
doesn't have such thing call FOREVER.

I used to tell others I have two lovely "bro" and "sis"
Andric and Ailin, we're named A.K.A. Yet now we're
separated. To be frank, who am i trying to lie to?
I thought our friendship is so strong that no one can
bring us apart. Never did I know, the one who will
bring us apart is US.

Where's the trust in between us?
One misunderstanding you end our sisterhood/brotherhood.
You chose to believe what he had said instead of
listening to my explanation. Yes it been a very long ago
incident but I still don't understand why.
I didn't know that our sisterhood is so fragile. Now you make
me believe that there's no one I could ever trust and call as
sister.

I'm so afraid to tell others about how I feel now.
I tried hiding home because I really can't bring
myself to believe anyone anymore. Even now if
I'm bothered with matter I'll just hide and cry.

I posted on blog because others all thought I'd not
been updating so it's pointless to even come therefore
this is a good way to vent all my unhappiness.

Losing you doesn't mean the world end for me.
I'm stronger than before. It just that I loss someone
I'm able to speak to when I'm down. It's alright to me,
anyway I'm brought up in this environment very soon
I'll be able to be stronger than before.

Falling down into the deepest pit doesn't mean the world
have ended. Only when you have the courage to climb up
from the it that's when the world of yours had started
to change. By climbing up, you show courage and determination.
With both of this factor in your life, it will change to be better than before.
Making you fall to the deepest, is just a test given by the God.
Overcome it and drive to your fullest.
Then nothing in the future will ever be a difficult test to you.
This was all that I'd thought of in this period.
I believe God took someone away from my life it is
to allow someone much awesome into it.